Saturday, April 15, 2017

The lose lose situation

I fell for a man. Hard. Although this should be good as i haven't cared for a man in years, it is, to me, a catastrophy. 
This situation is the worst i could ever be in. 
Why? Well: he happens to be one of the best friends of the man who raped me years ago. And he doesn't know. Nobody knows. I live frightened in the thought i could bump into him. 
I am so afraid i have to let him go. Even though he is the only man i want right now. 
I see no solutions. I am trapped, yet again by this man i hate. Years later. Still trapped.

Friday, April 7, 2017


Recently, i have been missing that un-interesting, immature fuckboy i had been sleeping with.

Because i miss the crazy, just violent enough sex we used to have all over my apartment.

That "fucking so wild" all of my furniture was literally completely displaced sex.

That "please let me suck you dick because it is so beautiful" sex.
That "damn you are so un-interesting but can you grab and take me from behind already" sex.

I miss his big sure hands, his big juicy lips, his alway so-hard dick...

That shut the fuck up and fuck me boy.

Thursday, April 6, 2017


Recently, i have met the 3rd specimen of this very strange and (thankfully) rare breed of men: the very handsome, very popular and very "cool" man that SOMEHOW can't do shit in bed.

Seriously, i don't get it. This 3rd man in question, is older, very good looking, extremely popular with the ladies, has had loads of girlfriends and is emotionally very articulate. An amazing prospect i thought.


The moment we finally got together, the second we kissed, the evening i slept over.... i realized sci-fi can take so many forms.
The dude lay over me like a bag of sand. Barely caressed anything else than my vagina and didn't even know how to properly grab my ass. Even after i asked AND showed him (in a cute sexy girl trying to not harm men's ego way). I even tried the "let's get a tiny kinky" to see if maybe he was just shy.. (it had happened to me with an ex, 1st time was terrible because he was afraid to let go his kinky self).. but no.
And after HE came..'coz obviously, i didn't, he lay there, feeling like an olympic champion, like "damn we just made love". Completely unaware of my face of shock/disappointment.

The only type of sexual scenario where you are not mad he doesn't go all night.

Damn boy, how did all these ladies stand to stay with you more than a few days??

Sci-fi is real people.

Thursday, December 8, 2016



Things work in weird ways sometimes...
So i have been really frustrated with this guy i was seeing... great qualities but damn he could piss me off. By his immaturity, his lack of awareness and above all, his lack of pussy-licking.
And this week, this ex of mine shows up in town.... and reminds me of everything i loved about mature, older, classy PUSSY-EATING men.
Goodness, it's like God felt sorry for me. So he send me everything i lacked for one good week of getting back to my good happy self.
But what is funny, is that he is JUST that, what i lacked. I have no feelings for him, we are just really good friends. I am literally just refueling in great conversations, quality dates, non-stop cuddling and affection and great pussy-eating. We don't even have sex every time, he just can't get enough of making me come on his mouth. And that my friends, is a real talent, as very few knowledgable men have that gift.
His hands all over your ass cheeks, your breasts, his tongues playing with your clit like a raver on extasy...That talent of reading your body shivers, interpretating your moans, and loving what he does so much that it makes any inch of self-conciousness you may have left, dissapear. Once you see yourself through HIS desire, his lips deeply into your pussy, there is no way not to come.
As he leaves, you see this face of victory of the man that takes pride in making you smile after coming.
And for that, i am very thankful.

Don't ever under-estimate the power of the great Pussy-Eating Master.

Monday, November 14, 2016

You don't like to eat pussy??

I have been very lucky in my sex life. Not in my love life, but in my sex life. My partners have almost all been good or great.
I have also been seeing a pattern in certain guys i had sex with, like preferences of positions, dominance, booty slapping. But the most sexy thing about all of them, was that they loved eating me out. LOVED. I can tell they were pussy lovers in general, but they always made it into such an important part of our love making, it makes me feel like a damn Queen.

The beauty of it to me, is to crave eating me out AND still dominate me in bed.... like the perfect balance of you serve me, and through that you gain your power and i serve you.

Until this guy. I actually had almost come to think there were no more guys who didn't eat girls out. Not a single guy that didn't take mad pride into mastering the vagina with their lips and tongue.
But yes. 2016... they are still out there girls! Not extinct!
And so when he did go down on me a couple times, i KNEW it was only to make me happy.... and i just don't find that sexy. It is almost like he doesn't embrace you ALL. As our vagina, like their dicks, are a central part of your sexual selves... it almost makes me feel like you are a kid that finds the "pipi" "gross and eww". And i don't fuck kids.
To top it off, he wasn't good at it.... too rough...too loud.... A damn shame.
So hard to ignore that even-though he was great in bed otherwise.

I mean, how long can you stay with a lover that doesn't eat you out?

Thursday, September 8, 2016


When you are so mad at a guy, you can't even find the concentration to touch yourself in order to relax. THE. WORST. 
Omg i hate him even more. 

Thursday, September 1, 2016


"Good morning! And how are you today?" He goes. 
"Great, thank you" I answer as i step into my usual coffee shop. "Fucking frustrated!" I think so lound in my head, i fear someone actually heard my thought.
And as i walk outside to the terrasse to sit and drink my first warm thing to enter my body since yesterday's date, i discretely stare at every man there, wondering if, them too, make their partners so fucking sexually frustrated.
Probably not. As this is the very first time in my life I actually have to say "I would like to actually have sex" or "can we make out"
Ya. This man i have been seing is starting to drive me nuts. It's like he keeps wanting to be closer but keeps teasing me with sexualy and physical attention. I have to ask for it. I always have to start it. And he always makes me feel like some-kind of nympho. And i am no nympho. I love sex, but not to a medically diagnosed level. I mean, in 4 months we only had sex 5 times. FIVE TIMES. That would give me a big 15 times in a year if we continue on this road. LUCKY FUCKING ME. 
I hate not feeling desired. But every time I decide to stop seeing him, he seems to get into a reality check panic mode and changes drastically. Make up your mind dude. Let me also say that i am no dirty, smelly, unattractive or socially dependent girl. Quite the opposite and i really do have a real choice of men that would LOVE to be with me or just fuck me if that's all they could get. 
And the worst thing is, this guy really likes kissing me, and loves fucking me. But it's like he is playing some-kind of young virgin game, in order to have me be more serious or something. Like he told me the other day "why do we always have to have sex when we see each other, can't we chill? I miss hanging out and going to eat and stuff." 
Dude, want to go eat, fucking take me out. 
And sex is not somesort of bonus cookie you give someone as a sometimes reward in a relationship, sex is the most intimate form of being with someone, of experiencing someone's presence and energy, it is intense, sharing and beautiful. 
I guess if he doesn't get that, then i need to find someone that does. 
I need another coffee.

Friday, July 29, 2016


I just realized i have this weird thing about men that are really into clothes. A man that knows and is more into shopping than me, turn off. 

Friday, June 17, 2016


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Thursday, June 16, 2016


I recently started sleeping with this really young man. 10 whole years younger than me. At first I was very hesitant as I had a lot of issues with it
But as soon as we had sex I figured whatever he's old enough he's very willing and he's very good at what he does.
There are advantages and this advantages to fucking 25-year-old.

- Sweet in very cute way.
- A very beautiful hard in 2 seconds cock.
And it stays hard for very long non-stop time. This one time we were having sex for a good half hour, then he got up coz he needed to catch his breath, went to get two glasses of water drank them, git a towel, wiped his face and went right back at fucking me for another good 30min. That whole 5 minutes break, his dick stayed rock hard. Pretty great. I had forgotten these little details from my 20s.

- Spends time on social media even while with people.
- Talks about girls like a boy not like a man.
- But mostly seems to start to mistake my kindness for some sort of control he thinks he has over this situation.
I treat everyone in my intimate circle with kindness. That is how i am, how i was taught, and how I keep the quality of my relationships with my friends.
But he seems to grow a little over-confident.. And cockiness is NOT cute. 
And I guess he still has to learn that. But that will be the last lesson I'll be teaching him. 
Because boo-boo a beautiful cock is something I truly appreciate but it is not that hard to find, but a kind and considerate man is the real treasure. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016


I 100% agree.
I have a strong personality and tend to be socially dominant, especially with men. But when it comes to sex: you better take control. I am the boss but in bed, i want you to be the boss.

"We aren’t the women who merely get by in the world using our beauty as a method for achievement; on the contrary, we are women who get by with our brains.
We are whip-smart creatures who expel endless brainpower into everything we do.
We spend our days in a hyper-focused state, penetrating our impressive energy into our work. At the end of the day, we are completely, intellectually drained.
We want to be desired for our bodies, and that’s OK. We don’t want to THINK, we want to feel and get lost in our sexuality.
We are insatiable creatures who want you to be overcome with fiery passion and pent up desire for us.
Just because we’re smart as all hell and often thought of as intimidating doesn’t mean we’re not teeming with sexual hunger from every pore – begging with every fiber of our being for you to take over."
"Because we refuse to be ashamed of our fantasies
Having real girl power means we have confidence in what turns us on. Just because we’re turned on by our partners serving as the dominant energy during sex doesn’t make us any less of a feminist than the girl who gets her rocks off in spanking boys; that’s for damn sure.
Owning your personal fantasy and NOT allowing yourself to feel embarrassed or ashamed for it is what being sex-positive really means.
Because our creativity is connected to our sexuality
It’s come to my attention the general masses don’t quite understand the most powerful of women are also the most creative.
Creativity is the most powerful weapon in all of the land — it’s what moves the world forward; after all, everything in existence was an idea before it came into tangible fruition, right?
We can’t micro-manage or compartmentalize creativity — once we are tapped into that side of ourselves, it overflows into all parts of our lives, sex included.
As powerful, creative women, we have an unstoppable ambition in venturing into unchartered territories.
Experimenting with power dynamics and feeling the rush of new sensations, now that’s sexy.
Because we are taking the power back
The sad truth is as much as society is taking mega strides toward improvement, even in the residence of this relatively safe first-world country, we as women have been made to feel vulnerable for merely existing.
Even the most powerful force of female nature isn’t exactly safe meandering the city streets in the darkness.
The world is chock-full of predators, and denying this unfortunate fact isn’t going to create change.
The sad part is, vulnerability shouldn’t be associated with helplessness because they’re two different things."

via this article yo.