Wednesday, October 11, 2017

From obsessed to grossed out

When being grossed out by one of your ex’ attempts to cuddle with you reminds you that you can get over any guy.
Isn’t it fascinating how we can, one day be all over one man, and after a disappointment or just time, really can’t stand the thought of his hands on you?
It’s amazing. 
I just went on an improvised road trip with this ex of mine. We have remained friends and so chilling together made sense. I just didn’t realize we were going to end up sharing a hotel room... and a hotel bed. 
That night, even though i had been REALLY clear, he of course tried to “naturally cuddle” while pretending to be asleep. 
I elbowed him so bad it was pathetic to see him pretend it didn’t wake him up and flee to his side of the bed.
That’s the thing, i love to cuddle. And i used to be so into this man when we were seeing each other, back in the day. But if I’m not into you anymore, the idea of you even touching me grosses me out.
I’m currently trying to erase this man from my body... and this weekend reminded me that, with time, it is possible. 

Tuesday, August 8, 2017


Not all sex toys are created equal. I just learned that the Mmmhhmm-way.

So lately, i have had one of these weeks: the ones that everybody seems to stare at you, want to or just straight up talks to you, smiles at you.
As whenever these days happen, i wonder if it's my outfit...or my energy... or my hair... or my cycle. As we all know we are (supposed to be) more attractive during our ovulation. But I have had these days within my ovulation and out of it. So yes... and no.
In this case, i was in my cycle of ovulation, but only 2 days.... the rest of the week was not.
So i Sherlocked this mystery and started looking into what i had maybe done different....
And there it was: the BIG difference: my new sex-toy.

See i have been mourning my favorite vibrator...and not only is it dead.. it is also discontinued.
But i was not going to let this tragedy get the best of my sexual health, and so i went into a shop, and went through the whole new collections and trends with the sales-guy.
There are these new toys, that are neither dildos nor vibrators. They look a little funny and un-sexy, but their very awesome fonction is everything but a joke: they gently (or less gently lol) suck your clitoris. Like a sweet loving pair of talented lips.
I was a little unsure at first, and decided to try it out, but went for the cheapest (still expensive!) version of it.

And.... OH EM GEE.
I hadn't had such a strong orgasm with a toy EVER.
Not only that, but i realized i hadn't had one of these with a man in a while as well. I've come, yes. Good: yes. But that hard? Like "you have to contains screaming"-hard? Like "you are actually exhausted and need to take a short nap"-hard? Not in a while.
So i used my new best friend every day, fantasizing away.. of this man in my head licking me like he does so well... and i feel that gave me that "glow"... i mean... it just makes sense to me.
I guess we will truly never know.
But i know i am upgrading my toy soon. It is that magical.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017


There is no saddest sight in the world than a pile of used condoms wasted on a limp dick.
Staring at you from your night table like the echo of your disappointment ..

Saturday, May 20, 2017


To find your lace thong from the night before.... laying proud and exhausted from a night of passion... wet from my cum... our sweat... his saliva...
What a beautiful sight.

Thursday, May 11, 2017


So i have been trying to get this useless man out of my mind. But like a corny annoying badly written song, he is stuck in my head.
So i have decided to take this purging to the next level.
I have been in touch with an ex. A great ex. And thankfully for me, a way better in bed ex.
So this morning, to start my day right, i decided to touch myself to this ex. 
Wasn't easy at first as it wasn't fully organic but.... it worked. 
And my orgasm was amazing.
* Patting myself on the shoulder *

Saturday, April 15, 2017

The lose lose situation

I fell for a man. Hard. Although this should be good as i haven't cared for a man in years, it is, to me, a catastrophy. 
This situation is the worst i could ever be in. 
Why? Well: he happens to be one of the best friends of the man who raped me years ago. And he doesn't know. Nobody knows. I live frightened in the thought i could bump into him. 
I am so afraid i have to let him go. Even though he is the only man i want right now. 
I see no solutions. I am trapped, yet again by this man i hate. Years later. Still trapped.

Friday, April 7, 2017


Recently, i have been missing that un-interesting, immature fuckboy i had been sleeping with.

Because i miss the crazy, just violent enough sex we used to have all over my apartment.

That "fucking so wild" all of my furniture was literally completely displaced sex.

That "please let me suck you dick because it is so beautiful" sex.
That "damn you are so un-interesting but can you grab and take me from behind already" sex.

I miss his big sure hands, his big juicy lips, his alway so-hard dick...

That shut the fuck up and fuck me boy.

Thursday, April 6, 2017


Recently, i have met the 3rd specimen of this very strange and (thankfully) rare breed of men: the very handsome, very popular and very "cool" man that SOMEHOW can't do shit in bed.

Seriously, i don't get it. This 3rd man in question, is older, very good looking, extremely popular with the ladies, has had loads of girlfriends, was even married, and is emotionally very articulate. An amazing prospect i thought.


The moment we finally got together, the second we kissed, the evening i slept over.... i realized sci-fi can take so many forms.
The dude lay over me like a bag of sand. Barely caressed anything else than my vagina and didn't even know how to properly grab my ass. Even after i asked AND showed him (in a cute sexy girl trying to not harm men's ego way). I even tried the "let's get a tiny kinky" to see if maybe he was just shy.. (it had happened to me with an ex, 1st time was terrible because he was afraid to let go his kinky self).. but no.
And after HE came..'coz obviously, i didn't, he lay there, feeling like an olympic champion, like "damn we just made love". Completely unaware of my face of shock/disappointment.

The only type of sexual scenario where you are not mad he doesn't go all night.

Damn boy, how did all these ladies stand to stay with you more than a few days??

Sci-fi is real people.

Thursday, December 8, 2016



Things work in weird ways sometimes...
So i have been really frustrated with this guy i was seeing... great qualities but damn he could piss me off. By his immaturity, his lack of awareness and above all, his lack of pussy-licking.
And this week, this ex of mine shows up in town.... and reminds me of everything i loved about mature, older, classy PUSSY-EATING men.
Goodness, it's like God felt sorry for me. So he send me everything i lacked for one good week of getting back to my good happy self.
But what is funny, is that he is JUST that, what i lacked. I have no feelings for him, we are just really good friends. I am literally just refueling in great conversations, quality dates, non-stop cuddling and affection and great pussy-eating. We don't even have sex every time, he just can't get enough of making me come on his mouth. And that my friends, is a real talent, as very few knowledgable men have that gift.
His hands all over your ass cheeks, your breasts, his tongues playing with your clit like a raver on extasy...That talent of reading your body shivers, interpretating your moans, and loving what he does so much that it makes any inch of self-conciousness you may have left, dissapear. Once you see yourself through HIS desire, his lips deeply into your pussy, there is no way not to come.
As he leaves, you see this face of victory of the man that takes pride in making you smile after coming.
And for that, i am very thankful.

Don't ever under-estimate the power of the great Pussy-Eating Master.

Monday, November 14, 2016

You don't like to eat pussy??

I have been very lucky in my sex life. Not in my love life, but in my sex life. My partners have almost all been good or great.
I have also been seeing a pattern in certain guys i had sex with, like preferences of positions, dominance, booty slapping. But the most sexy thing about all of them, was that they loved eating me out. LOVED. I can tell they were pussy lovers in general, but they always made it into such an important part of our love making, it makes me feel like a damn Queen.

The beauty of it to me, is to crave eating me out AND still dominate me in bed.... like the perfect balance of you serve me, and through that you gain your power and i serve you.

Until this guy. I actually had almost come to think there were no more guys who didn't eat girls out. Not a single guy that didn't take mad pride into mastering the vagina with their lips and tongue.
But yes. 2016... they are still out there girls! Not extinct!
And so when he did go down on me a couple times, i KNEW it was only to make me happy.... and i just don't find that sexy. It is almost like he doesn't embrace you ALL. As our vagina, like their dicks, are a central part of your sexual selves... it almost makes me feel like you are a kid that finds the "pipi" "gross and eww". And i don't fuck kids.
To top it off, he wasn't good at it.... too rough...too loud.... A damn shame.
So hard to ignore that even-though he was great in bed otherwise.

I mean, how long can you stay with a lover that doesn't eat you out?