Sunday, March 31, 2013


" If i come to your house and you don't have any book? I won't fuck you" - my girl at brunch today.

Friday, March 29, 2013



So i've tried something new the other day... was kinda surprising but as anything in bed, you really have a quarter of a second to either go with it or find an express sexy escape. He got super excited when i mentioned other guys. And then asked me to describe how and where they fucked me. I actually liked it. He after told me that it was like watching a porno with me in it....and i like that idea. Hot.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013


So today is my last day of my Celibacy Month Vow. And i'm really happy with having done it. It has been hard at times but very healing in general. I really felt like i was keeping my energy to myself, and focusing more on life and small pleasures.
The first few days were hard as i was trying to deprogram the sex out of my everyday thoughts. Then, it really got easy and pleasant. The fact that it was just one month made it easier psychologically. I also was able to get this last man out of my system, which really is a good thing. Thank you Celibacy Month!
One big thing is that it really brought the sensibility back into me. The sexual sensibility that is. I now get really arroused by the smallest things again. A neck, a look, a movement, the slight opening of a man's lips… but not in a "i wanna jump him" kinda way. More like i'd love to spend hours arousing each other kind of way.
Now this week got really hard, as i've started to talk with this beautiful man on a regular basis. I never realized how hard it can get to talk to a man every night on Skype, see his eyes eat you up and still keep from "slipping". I think the hardest is AFTER we Skype, the fact that i can not let my mind wonder because i can not touch myself thinking of him….yet.
Anyway….i'm glad i did it. Felt good, felt healing. More focused, more love to myself.
I would definitely recommend doing it to anyone who needed a bit of me-time.

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Saturday, March 23, 2013




Sorry, was laughing too hard.


Monday, March 18, 2013


As a straight person, this side of history has not been exposed to me, though I've always wondered. What was gay culture like before Stonewall? Did people have the audacity to pair in public? Did they go to gay bars? Did they dress in drag in public? After looking at these pictures, I can surely say "yes". Obviously gays have been around forever, I just wondered what the world was like for them before it became socially acceptable. Mind you, in many places (and here as well in many ways), it still is unacceptable. 

Considering the climate of hatred going on in the western world at the time, I am both surprised and delighted to see that people still pushed the envelope to find self-acceptance and fight to love who they wanted to.

Anyways, I'm rambling.....ENJOY THIS WONDERFUL FIND!!!



Good morning to me.
Some men are no poets.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013


An Indian woman, a Japanese woman, and a Syrian woman, all training to be doctors at Women’s Medical College of Philadelphia, 1880s. (Image courtesy Legacy Center, Drexel University College of Medicine Archives, Philadelphia, PA.)

Monday, March 11, 2013


He writes to you, calls you, calls you pretty, then very.
You become sweet like honey, then straight up baby.
Then you might think you became something else, maybe "you and me"...
But no sweetie, these were just words.
A few letters ordered in a way that touched your Imaginary, but not Reality.

Sunday, March 10, 2013



Three years ago, something really bad and traumatic happened to me.
Something that has impacted my life and my womanhood until today. I've been seen someone and my best friend, parents and brother have been extremely present in helping me cope with it.
Yet i had been never able to write it down. Barely actually able to tell a few of my closest friends.

So last week, when out of nowhere, in the metro, i wrote a text about it, it felt like a huge accomplishment, bigger than anything i have accomplished in the last 3 years.

And the entire week, when people have been asking me, "so what's new with you?" although i answered the usual "i did this, or this really exciting thing happened", all i had as a real answer was" i wrote about it, i wrote about IT."

Saturday, March 9, 2013


Just needed to post this.


"In 2003, Columbia Business School professor Frank Flynn and New York University professor Cameron Anderson ran an experiment. They started with a Harvard Business School case study about a real-life entrepreneur named Heidi Roizen. It described how Roizen became a successful venture capitalist by using her “outgoing personality … and vast personal and professional network … [which] included many of the most powerful business leaders in the technology sector.” Half the students in the experiment were assigned to read Heidi’s story. The other half got the same story with just one difference—the name was changed from Heidi to Howard.

When students were polled, they rated Heidi and Howard as equally competent. But Howard came across as a more appealing colleague. Heidi was seen as selfish and not “the type of person you would want to hire or work for.” This experiment supports what research has already clearly shown: success and likability are positively correlated for men and negatively correlated for women. When a man is successful, he is liked by both men and women. When a woman is successful, people of both genders like her less." - Sheryl Sandberg

Thursday, March 7, 2013


Skype convo:

Super hot model guy i used to have sex with: " your nipples look hard….. show me" (insert sweet sexy-ass-killer-smile)
Me: "no."

Small victories. Pad on my back. Yeah.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013


"I'm not trying to impress you or anything but ... I am Batman " 
I must admit, I liked it.

Monday, March 4, 2013


Here are some of Takato Yamamoto's drawings… dark and calmly erotic, they picture a lot of the japanese art of Kinbaku, or rope bondage, an ancien sexual practice.

I personnaly don't love images where women don't seem to be having an amazing time while having sex, but i also know that there is a cultural way of doing certain sexual parctices. (although it must ALWAYS BE CONSENSUAL) But hey, some peeps really get off on this! 

One of my girl friend actually has a rope and learned a few tying technics. She showed me and i must admit it was quite arousing…
Maybe i'll try one day…soft version though, no hanging shit.

I just really like the aesthetic and weird erotism in these images…

Sunday, March 3, 2013


So day one and two went pretty well… a few dirty thoughts to chase away, a few hands, backs and eyes caught my attention but quickly turned my attention elsewhere. I did good, and was almost thinking this was going to be pretty easy.
Then Day Three came.
Gosh. Went for brunch with one of my male friends. Just a friend. But the kind to give me a lot of compliments and kinda likes me in a "i'd love to sleep with you" way. So. Every time he would touch my hand, talk close to my face or neck, beg for a sweet "innocent" cheek kiss, almost caress my ass… it got a bit hard. Like "i had to really concentrate" hard.
Wow. He went home, me too. Success. For now.

Friday, March 1, 2013


Two nights ago, i had my girls over for an evening of friendship and raw fish. Not just any of my girls, some of my closest friends. So close, we each even have a secret name, logo and group name: the Boston Tea Party Massacre. Don't ask.

Anyway, it had been a year since we were all together (due to living in different cities) so we had a lot of catching up to do. Life, work, and men. My turn came and i went on on how disappointed in both men and sex i was. How un-exciting and how un-surprising it got. Basically, it was not this great amazing adventure anymore.

One word lead to another, a phrase to an idea and then... they all somehow agreed i should take a vow of celibacy.
The word itself completely freaked me out at first, as i am a very sexual girl (kinda think about it all day). But then the idea settle in and started making sense.

A month. I will do a month of total celibacy.

No sex, no masturbation, no erotic thoughts, no hitting on guys, no charm playing, no bouncing my hips when i pass by a good looking man, no sexting (this one is huge, i'm a part-time sextoholic), no kissing, no sweet touching. NOTHING. A freakin' Sex-Ramadan, without the binge-eating at night.

Not that i believe sex is bad in any way, just that i find that it takes too much of my thoughts, and energy for not much greatness at the end these days. So i wanna figure out where this energy and time will go to this month. I also stated doing 10 minutes of meditation evey morning (through this dope App called Headspace). You know, to see what really is in me when i take the sexual distraction away for a little bit.

I passed my first day successfully (looked away every time i saw a good looking guy, turn off my attention from my phone and certain contacts, shut off certain thoughts and day dreams as soon as they would appear in my mind.
I did good. But it was only day one. I hope this is not going to be as hard as i am afraid it will be.

"Only a month, it's only a month"……yes i can.