Saturday, April 15, 2017

The lose lose situation

I fell for a man. Hard. Although this should be good as i haven't cared for a man in years, it is, to me, a catastrophy. 
This situation is the worst i could ever be in. 
Why? Well: he happens to be one of the best friends of the man who raped me years ago. And he doesn't know. Nobody knows. I live frightened in the thought i could bump into him. 
I am so afraid i have to let him go. Even though he is the only man i want right now. 
I see no solutions. I am trapped, yet again by this man i hate. Years later. Still trapped.