" If i come to your house and you don't have any book? I won't fuck you" - my girl at brunch today.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Friday, March 29, 2013
NOT JEALOUS
So i've tried something new the other day... was kinda surprising but as anything in bed, you really have a quarter of a second to either go with it or find an express sexy escape. He got super excited when i mentioned other guys. And then asked me to describe how and where they fucked me. I actually liked it. He after told me that it was like watching a porno with me in it....and i like that idea. Hot.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
CELIBACY MONTH CONCLUSION
So today is my last day of my Celibacy Month Vow. And i'm really happy with having done it. It has been hard at times but very healing in general. I really felt like i was keeping my energy to myself, and focusing more on life and small pleasures.
The first few days were hard as i was trying to deprogram the sex out of my everyday thoughts. Then, it really got easy and pleasant. The fact that it was just one month made it easier psychologically. I also was able to get this last man out of my system, which really is a good thing. Thank you Celibacy Month!
One big thing is that it really brought the sensibility back into me. The sexual sensibility that is. I now get really arroused by the smallest things again. A neck, a look, a movement, the slight opening of a man's lips… but not in a "i wanna jump him" kinda way. More like i'd love to spend hours arousing each other kind of way.
Now this week got really hard, as i've started to talk with this beautiful man on a regular basis. I never realized how hard it can get to talk to a man every night on Skype, see his eyes eat you up and still keep from "slipping". I think the hardest is AFTER we Skype, the fact that i can not let my mind wonder because i can not touch myself thinking of him….yet.
Anyway….i'm glad i did it. Felt good, felt healing. More focused, more love to myself.
I would definitely recommend doing it to anyone who needed a bit of me-time.
The first few days were hard as i was trying to deprogram the sex out of my everyday thoughts. Then, it really got easy and pleasant. The fact that it was just one month made it easier psychologically. I also was able to get this last man out of my system, which really is a good thing. Thank you Celibacy Month!
One big thing is that it really brought the sensibility back into me. The sexual sensibility that is. I now get really arroused by the smallest things again. A neck, a look, a movement, the slight opening of a man's lips… but not in a "i wanna jump him" kinda way. More like i'd love to spend hours arousing each other kind of way.
Now this week got really hard, as i've started to talk with this beautiful man on a regular basis. I never realized how hard it can get to talk to a man every night on Skype, see his eyes eat you up and still keep from "slipping". I think the hardest is AFTER we Skype, the fact that i can not let my mind wonder because i can not touch myself thinking of him….yet.
Anyway….i'm glad i did it. Felt good, felt healing. More focused, more love to myself.
I would definitely recommend doing it to anyone who needed a bit of me-time.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
WALKING BY MY CRUSH
Expectation:
Reality:
Sorry, was laughing too hard.
(via http://whatshouldwecallme.tumblr.com/)
Reality:
Sorry, was laughing too hard.
(via http://whatshouldwecallme.tumblr.com/)
Monday, March 18, 2013
LGBT HISTORY: A PHOTO STORY.
As a straight person, this side of history has not been exposed to me, though I've always wondered. What was gay culture like before Stonewall? Did people have the audacity to pair in public? Did they go to gay bars? Did they dress in drag in public? After looking at these pictures, I can surely say "yes". Obviously gays have been around forever, I just wondered what the world was like for them before it became socially acceptable. Mind you, in many places (and here as well in many ways), it still is unacceptable.
Considering the climate of hatred going on in the western world at the time, I am both surprised and delighted to see that people still pushed the envelope to find self-acceptance and fight to love who they wanted to.
Anyways, I'm rambling.....ENJOY THIS WONDERFUL FIND!!!
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
EARLY MEDICINE.
Monday, March 11, 2013
JUST WORDS
He writes to you, calls you, calls you pretty, then very.
You become sweet like honey, then straight up baby.
Then you might think you became something else, maybe "you and me"...
But no sweetie, these were just words.
A few letters ordered in a way that touched your Imaginary, but not Reality.
You become sweet like honey, then straight up baby.
Then you might think you became something else, maybe "you and me"...
But no sweetie, these were just words.
A few letters ordered in a way that touched your Imaginary, but not Reality.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
TO PUT IT IN WORDS
Three years ago, something really bad and traumatic happened to me.
Something that has impacted my life and my womanhood until today. I've been seen someone and my best friend, parents and brother have been extremely present in helping me cope with it.
Yet i had been never able to write it down. Barely actually able to tell a few of my closest friends.
So last week, when out of nowhere, in the metro, i wrote a text about it, it felt like a huge accomplishment, bigger than anything i have accomplished in the last 3 years.
And the entire week, when people have been asking me, "so what's new with you?" although i answered the usual "i did this, or this really exciting thing happened", all i had as a real answer was" i wrote about it, i wrote about IT."
Something that has impacted my life and my womanhood until today. I've been seen someone and my best friend, parents and brother have been extremely present in helping me cope with it.
Yet i had been never able to write it down. Barely actually able to tell a few of my closest friends.
So last week, when out of nowhere, in the metro, i wrote a text about it, it felt like a huge accomplishment, bigger than anything i have accomplished in the last 3 years.
And the entire week, when people have been asking me, "so what's new with you?" although i answered the usual "i did this, or this really exciting thing happened", all i had as a real answer was" i wrote about it, i wrote about IT."
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